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but not everything is miserable! I decided to rewatch the death note drama which i never finished, and got to episode 6 this time where it suddenly turned good after being kind of boring.... that was totally fun! i hope the rest of the series remains good, they did some fun twists and had a couple of great scenes in the last episode!

My long death note story is also finished, now I am working on editing it. i've edited part 1 and am in progress posting it, and have begun editing the first few chapters of part 2. then i got sick so... got stuck in the middle of a chapter with no ideas. but generally the editing is going pretty well and smoothly and fun. so that's great!!!

i really like hot cider in the autumn and we have been having so much of it with cinnamon and cloves and orange slices and it makes me feel happy!

with work i finished a book recently and it got published. not very much bought, but eh... :/ still! it's fun! the thing is supposedly you don't actually start making any money from books till you've got like 15 of them so I'm creeping toward that (i think I've got... five? but not all in the same genre so maybe it doesn't add up the same way idk) like getting. 3 dollars for a 20-dollar-priced book is so sad. i mean it's still cool but ahh. well, whatever...! stuff i am enjoying: my comic strip! i like doing it! it makes me happy!

future ideas: need to get back to doing taekwondo (sigh) because i pay by month because it's cheaper, but then it's so much easier to forget to do it and end up skipping the whole month for vaguely-defined reasons and blech... ALSO i have this graphic novel idea i want to make next year but we'll see...

p.s. i managed to finish the fic in time to post it on october 31 for L's birthday which was super awesome!!! :)

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Current Location: home

I have only *1* more chapter to complete before my Death Note story will be finished [besides the pages and pages of edits I want to make]
~it is so close~

Current Mood: artistic

october is my favorite month of the year because it leads up to Halloween!!!!!

I've been rewatching the Harry Potter movies (bc even though JKR sucks the movies are still good) and am going to watch the final one this weekend. I also finished illustrating a book for work—finally! yay! and wrote the intro essay for it! AND I now only have *2 chapters* left of my excruciatingly long Death Note fic left, one half-written, the last chapter mostly just a pile of notes, and my goal is to get it done in time to be able to post the first chapter on the entire, completed fic by Halloween on L's birthday!!!! (there will still be lots of edits to do, I have like what 6 pages of just notes on edits I want to make but if I at least finish it I feel like I can happily post the first chapter even if I haven't completed the edits yet

It's been *ages*

I've been reading a lot of Snape/Lily recently [yeah it's literally my only Harry Potter OTP idk why I don't even ship in HP universe generally], most of which were fairly bad or out of character, but there were two fics that absolutely blew me away: one was A Dream Carved from Stone, by diadelphous the other is Come Once Again and Love Me by laventadorn. "A Dream Carved from Stone" had this lovely, soft, gorgeous and beautiful writing style, one of those fics that you just want to make last as long as you can because there's something so beautiful about it—like moonlight. In my bookmarks I described it: "BEST LILY/SEVERUS FIC EVER. BEAUTIFUL, GORGEOUS, BITTERSWEET AND LOVELY. HAPPY ENDING. ALSO my favorite Snape and Dumbledore fic by the by! gorgeous and interesting spy!Snape stuff and a really interesting Voldemort & Snape relationship too". (plus my absolute *favorite* take on dark vs light magic in HP!verse).

On the other hand, "Come Once Again and Love Me" was a total pageturner from the very beginning, and got so many characters spot-on: not only Snape and Lily but also an incredible Remus, a really awesome Dumbledore (though he doesn't appear in it much) and best of all my favorite take EVER on Eileen, nothing else can ever compare after that, it is my new headcanon for her. That story took some tropes I'm usually iffy on and made me love them, as well as telling a really lovely tale on second chances and how people have both good and bad in them in a way that ended on a really remarkably hopeful note. Both totally different stories but also totally good.

I have also been keeping up on Dracula Daily! I can't believe it is almost over again! :)

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Current Location: home

bc i saw what Kyo said about it being kind of like Yotsuba arc which piqued my interest, then I checked the synopsis on wikipedia & I was like: ooh! sci-fi brain stuff, sounds fun!

I'm about halfway through it (just finished the episode where they found the goats)

misc. thoughts:

Lumen — what's its deal? oil? (that black goo) medical stuff/experimentation/drugs? (killing the goats for something?) the break room — they all hear something different — maybe what they're subconsciously running from/afraid of?

Each of the main characters is like a different type as to where they find meaning — the type that believes in a higher purpose, the type that wants experiences/physical stuff along the way, the type that is kind of like what's the point/disassociated/I just do it, the type that's like no I don't like any of it I'd rather die

Visuals are super cool and eerie. Very SPN!heaven vibes. Also The Prisoner vibes a bit, which is fun :) I feel like Helley and Number 6 have a similar kind of spirit in them. Of course it is also No Exit

What's up with that chip in their heads? I think it does more than just split their brains — maybe it gives them subconscious perceptual number-powers so they can do their trashing-data jobs. Maybe that's actually the point, and the brain splitting is just how they're covering it up.

Totally guessed that the break room was torture before they showed it, but it definitely could've been worse/more horrifying in there. Nicely done though.

I'm not sure if Helley's like... a double agent or something maybe? Who got herself in there to figure out what was going on? And that's why she won't let herself leave? Either that or they're gonna do something with that her inner-version is good and sort of admirable, but her outer-version really is just horrible and amoral and what does that say about their relationships with personhood

Kind of like Mark's inside-version better, he's a lot more brave (though I do like outside-Mark's relationship with his sister, that's sweet. Plus he just told her that secret that he thinks Lumen's up to something — maybe they will team up to do some exploring!)

They probably couldn't get permission to use Enter Sandman so that's why they used a cover for the funeral scene, but I think they did a good job/nice choice to make it be a "bad" version that the daughter sang.

That lady with the silver hair is so creepy. Also I am sure I have seen that actress before in something but I have refrained from googling so I don't get spoilers.

The romance between Irving(?) and that other guy is so sweet! I did not expect that. Actually Irving annoyed me at first but I ended up kind of invested in him since he's actually doing something, now the short guy is the only person who doesn't have a mission of some sort, though he is reading the book

Interesting metaphorical thing/point with that book being kind of dumb but inside Lumen it's enough to spark things and give them courage, just by saying anything at all and giving them alternatives to the "official narrative."

Basement floor — endless maze — very like the minotaur's labyrinth. I wonder what's in the center of it? Or are they?

I think each character ended up here/put themselves here because of something they're afraid of facing, maybe something in their past or something they did.

Why does no one else live in the apartment complex? Why does the grey haired lady spy on Mark? Is he that important to things, or does she have some kind of personal investment in the matter? Does she have secrets of her own? I think she does...

Irving's goo visions are maybe his subconscious beginning to more consciously interpret what they're doing with the data/what Lumen's doing? Will he eventually see or know a secret through that?

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I just got opentoonz and wanted to try out a little animation. It’s looking pretty good so far! but I couldn’t figure out how to connect it to ffmpeg so it could export in the right format so I just exported it as a bunch of stills and then put them all in ezgif….. I really need to figure out how to fix that before I do something longer

I haven't messed around with animation for a couple of years and I used to use pencil.app but I wanted to branch out... also it stopped working on my computer :/ but this software is pretty easy to use too if you google some tutorials. except for the exporting bit. i'm not sure how i'm even going to fix it because i am... so baffled. what do I download? why is import/export settings not showing up for me?
many questions.

Current Mood: cheerful

started like a zillion different projects and have been very busy with them. One is a drawing project and it's going well! the only issue with it is that I have grand ideas that appear far too quickly for me to do anything about them, so I always feel like I'm behind, lol
anyway
a family friend visited for like a week and we all hung out and went to the city and saw a show it was cool, it's been a while since we've done anything like that. my sister started her class and so everyone else has been busy too in helping her with stuff...
I started a new writing column that's very fun
I also got an invitation to speak [online] to a classroom about my graphic novel! it's so super cool but also i'm nervous bc i hate zoom... in-person events are so much easier... anyway this is like the first invitation of this sort I've gotten and I feel all author-y.
As far as stuff that isn't work: I've been focusing really a lot on trying not to be stressed and it's actually working out pretty well! what else? I wrote some cool death note meta & a few short fics. I am *still* working on that big long one... creeping slowly toward the end of it in & around my other stuff I'm doing... but I'm so impatient!! aagh...
I need to get back to doing stretches/dancing every day. I stopped over the holidays and then January was so hectic I didn't get back into it. But I started again today, so yay!

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Current Location: at home,

that was fun :) we won't get to finish it till sunday though...

Other news: work stuff is going on; two articles I wrote came out (yay!) & one is impressive [although kind of boring]. The other one I really like :) I have mostly so far managed to stick to my plan & have been consequently feeling actually somewhat better! <3 also so many emails... I hate emails...

[except for Dracula Daily. I did that this year on tumblr & it was so fun. I've read Dracula like 3 times(?) before that but it was even better with the book club]

this far-too-long fanfic I'm writing is slowly creeping its way toward being finished. Now that Nanowrimo is over it's harder to get the motivation to write every day, but I'm doing it little by little... I had real trouble with one specific chapter that I had to write and then edit and change the direction on three separate times because I wasn't happy with where it was going; it's an important bit/turning point so it needed a lot of extra thought. But now that bit is over and the next part fingers crossed will be a little easier—also I'm super excited for the next arc (which is the last or the second-to-last one in the story, depending on how I count it).

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Current Location: home

woke up full of optimism & hope. then had a really horrible day.

that i've never done before. I know some html, don't really know css but can make it do stuff for me, but for the first time I messed around in terminal & managed to find file directories and make it list out files that I have. I know, it's super basic lol :) but it was cool to see stuff happen when I typed! ah, not even list files in directories, I also got it to tell me when the files were created. Awesome.
Let's see if I can remember what the commands were:

cd [finding certain folders through paths]
ls [list]
ls -l [that's an L] [for showing the date created etc]
yay!

also figured out a small little issue that was confusing me for a bit. For a while I was having trouble where the path wasn't working, say

/folder1/folder2/folder 3

it was like "never heard of that place."

Then I managed to google & find out that, of course, it was getting all tripped up by the space. Of course! why would it think those were the same thing? I know it because I know what I named my folders but the computer doesn't. A folder with a space in the name has to be written like this:

/folder 1/folder2/"folder 3"

kind of self-evident. But also. cool! I figured it out :)

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Current Location: home

I bought a christmas present for someone... I'm super excited, I think it will be fun :)

[gonna try out some pottery-fixing with silver]

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Location: home, cosy near radiator

On the upside, it is raining, and the rain is tapping on the windows and it's so cozy and nice and warm inside.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Location: inside listening to the rain

well, at least according to them. The story isn't as close to being done... but it's still exciting. I had mashed potatoes for dinner, and onions, and leftover pancakes, and green beans from Thanksgiving. I danced for a bit to this playlist...

Watch on YouTube

which is such a fun moody christmas list :) I was practicing some ballet stuff, and since I haven't gone to a class in 3 years now, I was only able to do 20 minutes of it ahhh. It's seriously more of a workout even than martial arts, certainly more than just dancing improv, which is what I've been doing most of the time, but I'm starting to think that isn't super effective as a type of exercise given this totally lousy showing. But I had fun with it anyway! Mostly doing barre and after that cooldown stretches. I would like to get back to yoga but there isn't a place that does that nearby in the winter (I don't think...) anyway, I'm so busy, if I do decide to do something it will probably be taekwondo again. I'm a total beginner at that and really interested in learning at least the basics.

ooh, I also got a lot of work done today; about a third of the way through researching annotations & found out quite a few fun things about Victorian-era London.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Location: just hanging out

Seems like the last time I wrote an update here I was in college. That's so weird to think of. Well, I graduated, and I'm working now as an editor and trying to become an author, as in I have some books & they're even published but we'll see if I end up making any money from it lol
uh what else
ok that's sad. besides my slight success in life there's nothing much good to talk about... no that's not true. I'm filming stuff for fun with my sister, fandom stuff. We had a lot of fun with that yesterday.
I also am writing the longest story I've ever attempted (it's a fanfic). I started it in February, the 15th I think, when things were really bad and I wanted to escape into a fake world. Wrote almost nonstop for two months and got a novel-length thing but it's still going. In the summer I stopped but during Nanowrimo I picked it up again and am continuing it... this thing is HUGE it intimidates me. I think it'll still take me two weeks after Nanowrimo to finish it. But I have sworn to finish it this year, so we'll see. The fanfic is Death Note and not only have I learned a lot craft-wise in writing it, the story is actually really fun, and it has helped me a lot emotionally. So that is good stuff.
What else? I participated in Dracula Daily and had the most awesome time. I also did all of Inktober, without missing a day, for the first time. I'm super proud of that. I even got a couple of good pictures from it.
I got new secondhand ink pens (not for Inktober—I haven't written in them yet because, uh, they are full of dried up old ink and I've been soaking them in alcohol after washing them in warm water but there's still bits in them help)
New book coming out soon professionally. Yay!
uh yeah so... other than that... still trying to get some stuff done. oh I also made a website. that was cool. I coded it myself on neocities. I don't even really know coding only some html mostly but I figured out some css too, and it's a complete mess and it's really obnoxious but I like it.
very foggy out today. the sky was paper white and I tried to write a haiku about it. It didn't turn out so good though.

Current Mood: calm
Current Location: still at home, still next to cosy radiator. this is good

it was just very slightly raining today and I went outside and on the side of the hill was this beautiful, bright green moss; there were tiny little white flowers growing with it too.

It was wonderful

Current Mood: content

there's this family friend we only get to see *maybe* twice a year and they were going to come over today but I just found out they aren't able to

and I've already been having a bad week

I'm trying to finish my senior project before I graduate, and this one room of the house got repainted a different color, which shouldn't be a big deal, but I cried

I'm feeling really overwhelmed rn

for the first time in at least a year or two. And I'm enjoying it! I wrote a whole bunch of it, years ago, but it never got finished, and I've wanted to expand and re-write it for a while, I just never did, for some reason.

But I was in the mood to write, and not in the mood for fic, and there's just something so awesome about playing in your "own" sandbox - because you can make the story go just about anywhere.

(Of course, in my head, the place is a weird mishmash of Star Trek, Star Wars, X-Files, and like... boarding school novels? & military espionage)

Current Location: home because it snowed today! yeah
Current Music: someday i want to finish a novel

—& working on etching :(

so that I can catch up on homework of watching 5 movies
we'll see if I survive

1/5 done!

Current Mood: overwhelmed

...or maybe it's just me...

So usually I'm a lurker, and sometimes (rarely) I participate in discussions; I particularly enjoy having one-on-one discussions about subjects like character analysis and story themes and whatnot. And it's easy to just reblog things on tumblr (although it's not like anybody really knows you exist if you just do that) but the format of dreamwidth is kind of stumping me. Because I'm like, ah, I need to have something to say. And blogging about personal things, even small things, is kind of what you do on this kind of platform. But I have no interest in doing that (it seems so hard, and so much work, for something that shouldn't be work) ... so that means that I have to actually think of something substantial to say or post if I want to do that, instead of updating on random life things.

To immediately contradict myself, in other news, I finished catching up on SPN. I feel like my head is spinning because I watched seasons 12-14 *really* quickly and I can't keep anything straight right now. Although I have less memory of seasons 9-11, and I actually watched those as they came out.

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Current Location: home